Worth the wait

When do you know if a person is worth the wait? After you go through so much with them does it get better or worse? Imagine not being able to talk to the love of your life for over a year. If you waited for them would it be worth it? Do you love that person? If that person loves you, they would wait for you too. If they wait and they love you, wouldn't they do absolutely anything for you? Specifically, if you ask them to just stay home one day during the week without any plans just for you and if they won't do it then that would tell you that they wouldn't do ANYTHING for you which means it's not true love. Unless it was for your family its different. Love is so complicated, but you know when you're in love. No matter how old you are. It's not just for grown ups. Things and people have changed so things will never go back the same way. After everything you go through, is it worth the wait?

Story of my life.

The things I go through in my life people don't really expect. I may have a smile on my face, but that doesn't mean I'm happy. A normal day at school with people always starting drama around me then people complaining about doing work or homework. It's the normal. I would usually have practice after school but the season is over so now I just ride the bus home. When I get home, I lay down, text my mom that I'm home. I may fall asleep I may start doing chores. That's just the normal for me. Around all the other stuff is when reality kicks in. My family problems, people not getting along. There is more drama at home for me than at school. Not having enough money for bills, for food. My grandpa was my best friend and I lost him. I was devastated. My parents are divorced and all they ever argue about is chil support money. I have two brothers in the marines who are just hard heads and stubborn. They don't care to cuss at you or hurt your feelings. The only real person I can talk to is my best friend. I talk to Jesus too. Sometimes I pray on what to do to help. When I get to school, some people judge me, think I'm weird just because I'm different. I'm just me. I'm not gonna try and fit in and be someone I'm not. People think I've got it good but they really have no idea what bad things go on in my life. Most of my family is two-faced and talk behind your back then deny it to your face. I remember when my mom was married to this guy and his son ate us out of a home. I had to starve myslef and eat junk food because there was literally nothing to eat. Our house was always a mess and I was always the one to clean up after people. I'm glad she's not with him now though. My family likes to dis-own me as a relative just because of a different colored boyfriend or 'cause the people I hang out with. It's not like that at all.. I wish people would get to know me as the real me before they start judging how my life is. When my friends come over and see how it is at home, the next day they tell me they are so sorry for what I have to go through. I can't let them feel sorry for me. I don't feel sorry for myself, I just have to live one day at a time. I have to see where God takes me in this life. When I was little, I had a mullet and kids always made fun of me because I was ugly or because I hung out with more guys 'cause I was a tom boy. I loved boy sports. I wasn't into cheerleading and all that hippy-girly stuff. I had a clef palet when I was born. Kids would make fun of my lip and call me a freak. My life wasn't all good and dandy when I was growing up. I just try to make the best out of it. When I was a little girl my grandma bought me this blanket with zoo animals on it. I would sleep with it every night. To this day I still sleep with it. I can't go to sleep without it. It's literally apart of me. I don't care how childish people think I am. I'm gonna have it till the day I die. I pray that before people judge me, get to know me. I'm sure it'll blow your mind. I feel like I just vented to the world about my life. There is a whole lot more to my life but this is just a gist of the little things for now.

Me and my dad.

So I'm so excited about this weekend.. Me and my dad are actually going to spend some time together in Mississippi. We use to have a close relationship but that all changed a while back. I had a boyfriend and he had this new girl in his life and it just felt like he was replacing me. Come to find out he's done with her and says he misses me. I'm gonna enjoy this time with him. I use to be a daddys girl above all other things and when I'm with him I have this country vibe and brings back like the way everything use to be. We use to go to drag races together and work on cars. He'd have me listening to country music and feeling like I was down in the west or something. I always wanted to ride horses and ride fourwheelers. Maybe this time we will get closer again and feel like a daddys girl again.(:

Who Cares?

So... Doesnt School stress enough about kids doing their best? They want us to be ourself and do good in the future but, they aren't realy letting us "be ourself". They want our schools to be professional but people don't really care. If they want us to be ourself, why won't they allow piercings? or crazy hair color? I understand about clothes because some people don't know how to dress. If the teachers or the board of education thinks it's a distraction, then don't look. You're not the one who deals with it, the people wearing it does! Some jobs may not allow piercings or hair color but you should enjoy your teenage years. You can always change your hair back and take out a piercing if you go out for a job. I say, LET US BE OURSELF! REGARDLESS, of what other people may say.! Just because you have a crazy hair color or an odd piercing doesn't mean you're trashy or not smart.. You're jut different from others and you like what you like. Don't try and be someone you're not.

Parents.

What is up with parents these days? Why do people not agree with interracial couples? There is no harm in it. You love who you love right? Sometimes you just can't help it. Parents sometimes get just a little bit ridiculous with how things are changing these days. It's not the 1960's anymore. My mom says that a mixed kid won't ever be excepted. Maybe that was true back then but now people don't really notice. Honestly, I think mixed kids are beautiful. Some people might not be attracted to their own race. If they are the people dealing with it then other people shouldn't judge and mind their own business. Parents may not allow their kids to do it because they still have to live there, but you have to think about how the future will be. What if you fell in love with someone with the other race and your mom makes you break up with them and never talk to them again? Wouldn't that make you angry? You have to do what she says but she also don't know how you will resent her when you get out of the house. Parents say they do things because they want what's best for you, but only God knows what's best for you. Like my mom says she doesn't want me to make the same mistakes as she did but I told her I'm not you. My priority's are different and I know what to do. I'm not immature and I know how to keep from getting hurt. So parents need to grow up and realize that this is 2011 not 1960's. People don't care what others do anymore.! Parents.